Yesterday I was proud of myself. Yesterday was better.
I was much more mindful than I normally am, and found myself being WAY more gracious. I had the same old craving all day... sugar or a snack. Normally I would respond by just going to the cupboard and grabbing the first yummy thing. Yesterday I noticed an interesting process. I would capture the craving and then think, "ugh! Why am I craving this again!?" Like, it was really annoying that I would keep having to battle. I do think that was a somewhat positive start, because instead of just diving in to that chocolate, I would stop myself. But, then I noticed that too was a negative reaction, and remembered that I wanted to be gracious to myself. So later in the day my reaction looked more like this: "Ok, why might I be having this craving?" I noticed that maybe half the time I was in or just coming out of a stressful situation, and then the other 50% was not induced by stress. Just plain old wanting a hit.
One time yesterday Charlie asked "So, how's your day?" What a wonderful moment.
Today I have lots planned. Full schedule. All positives, but I still want to stay on track the best I can.
Goals:
Be gracious to myself
Drink water
Eat salad for dinner (going out with girls)
Drink water
Eat salad for dinner (going out with girls)
ps: I packed the scale yesterday... so that's kinda nice. Forcing myself to not know my weight. Next time I step on that will be in 2 weeks in our new home.
