The new thing

Hi,
It's been a while.

About 2 months ago I listened to a podcast and it really hit home for me. I related to the interviewee and appreciated the science she offered to back up what she was presenting. Welcome,

Bright Line Eating.

So here I am, day two on this journey. Lots has happened between my last post and today, but maybe that doesn't matter for now.

Here's what I have committed to:

1. Bright line eating for 100 days (March 10, 2018)
2. Strictly following this eating plan which includes:

• no flour
• no sugar or sweeteners
• 3 meal times and no snacking between
• portioning out the food at each meal

3. Reaching out for support daily. (This could include blogging, instagramming, a Facebook group for BLE, or two friends that have agreed to be my accountability partners)

I finished the BLE book today and honestly, I still feel hesitant. I feel like I could perhaps fail again. This seems like a big challenge. Parts of BLE goes against my way of seeing nutrition, but then again I don't really know how to categorize nutrition for 1) healthy normal weight people versus 2) overweight people. I'm certainly in that second category and the 80/20 philosophy hasn't been working for me. 

So here are some stats. Because I'm a numbers/graph gal, duh. 

Heaviest: 283 (January 2011)

Current: 233.8 (Yesterday, November 30, 2017)

100 day Goal: 199  (March 10, 2018)

Interested in joining me? Want to be my accountability in some way? Comment or message me. :) 

byebye

HY

6/1/2017

Just realized it's JUNE.

Yesterday I was proud of myself. Yesterday was better.

I was much more mindful than I normally am, and found myself being WAY more gracious. I had the same old craving all day... sugar or a snack. Normally I would respond by just going to the cupboard and grabbing the first yummy thing. Yesterday I noticed an interesting process. I would capture the craving and then think, "ugh! Why am I craving this again!?" Like, it was really annoying that I would keep having to battle. I do think that was a somewhat positive start, because instead of just diving in to that chocolate, I would stop myself. But, then I noticed that too was a negative reaction, and remembered that I wanted to be gracious to myself. So later in the day my reaction looked more like this: "Ok, why might I be having this craving?" I noticed that maybe half the time I was in or just coming out of a stressful situation, and then the other 50% was not induced by stress. Just plain old wanting a hit.

One time yesterday Charlie asked "So, how's your day?" What a wonderful moment.

Today I have lots planned. Full schedule. All positives, but I still want to stay on track the best I can.

Goals: 

Be gracious to myself
Drink water
Eat salad for dinner (going out with girls)

ps: I packed the scale yesterday... so that's kinda nice. Forcing myself to not know my weight.  Next time I step on that will be in 2 weeks in our new home. 

May 31, 2017- Wednesday morning on the porch with the boys

I'm forcing myself to write some thoughts this morning. We are moving in less than a week, and I have a shit ton to do, but I think this is important for my mental health.

I had my last appointment with Tia yesterday. Oh, how helpful it was to just verbalize my feelings to someone for an hour. She was a great listener, and surprised me with how much she could help. Before I went to my first appointment with her, I had it in my head that I probably wouldn't absorb much from a conventional-style health coach. I'm glad I was wrong. Out of all the sessions with Tia, I hope to remember these things I learned with her:

• Be gracious to myself as I would be to someone else telling me their similar situation
• Be realistic with myself. Setting the bar too high often ends up in what I see as failure, resulting in me feeling shitty about myself. 
• Mindfulness 

So now, as we are just days from a huge change in our lives, I'm going to try my absolute best to set a few goals out:

• Set alarm to wake up before the kids 
• Look for one moment of mindfulness or solitude each day 
• When we eat out, order the healthiest option available
• Think about if I'm really hungry or not before I eat a meal
• Keep my water jar on the counter filled up